Dominant Motif

May this remind you that the mercurial is only scary when it doesn’t serve your own sexy plot. I urge you to come up a with dominant motif even for a day. Take the time for your own details!!

As much as I enjoy living I enjoy the subsequent archiving of it infinitely more. I have from a very young age been a tracker, plotter, de-constructer of what has occurred. I enjoy the proof. This comes in many forms but top of mind are the following:

1. Yearly Book Archives - all have start / finish dates. I have my own annotation guide. They all get bundled at the end of the year so I can tell you the order/ the month/ and the takeaway.

2. The “new” lists - a complete list of everything new I have experienced from grand to the very minuscule. I would like to be able to recall the first apple juice I liked and when or if ever I liked cooking an egg and if it was circumstantial.

3. Sharpie perfume - I have sharpied the year on the bottom of every perfume so I know my chapters by scent

The list goes on and on and on ! I think the mind fails to remember the extent to which we live and we have a duty to recall the vastness especially in our inner worlds. I care to care about what it is I enjoy. I find that by archiving for myself I give it weight and I forgo the external validation that so often destroys the pleasure.

I laughed this week when my therapist asked me what my theme of the year was and laughed harder when all my closest people were also looking for the dominant motif of 2025. I then realized that I had let people in on my own yearly theme. 2024 was the year of the harvest. 2023 the year of the cowboy. Every year it comes to me - my own plot. It is a loose guide but it is informative, funny and I am able to measure against it.

I find January and February absolutely challenging. I am guided by walking and sun and the ability to have clothing that is non restrictive. This week I was relieved when the theme came to me and I could begin my building. 2025 the year of silk. I had a sense for the last couple of weeks that this year was elite, clean, fragile and feminine in nature. Silk is terrifying in its lack of shape, tenderness and laborious nature. It is also rich and soft and slippery. The year has already felt so tender and so I look to silk to guide me back to a divine level of care. I write this mostly as a reminder to myself that as we continue to be surrounded by noise that we must plot our own course with ferocious intention. We must look for our own divine understanding and remember for ourselves that details always save us. We come back by the guides of our past and our ability to shape privately and uniquely our own experience.

May this remind you that the mercurial is only scary when it doesn’t serve your own plot. I urge you to come up a with dominant motif even for a day. Take the time to find a through line and effortfully go after it even for an hour. Enjoy chasing the dominos. Start small and plot - alone. Distraction is a beast but veering off is always the way back. My boyfriend reminded me this morning that i’m the most single girlfriend he could imagine and it boosted me for a lifetime that even he sees my solo arch as autonomous and important.

My Silk Dominos of 2025 (so far…. will continue to see what comes and what falls off):

Matching Secret Tattoos

Have you tried an afternoon of solo perfume wondering ——- very silk. every person close has to smell you and better if you have to go back to buy.

MARIA - the set design mostly.

Ego by Beyonce - Listen 3x Times. Full Silk